Good Intentions

Dear Ms. Intentional,

The theme lately is living intentionally, though having to Google what that is may not be a good sign.  It seems that having good intentions and living intentionally are two very different things.  You always intended for your kids to have the best of everything without them having to struggle, you intended to get remarried a year after you got divorced, you had the best of intentions that your company would flourish and you would be set for life by 50.  So much of what we try to accomplish is vague and undefined, and though good intentions are nice, they don't mean anything without good decisions.

So today you begin the harder path of choosing to live intentionally.  To do this you have to go back to your goals, your core values, what you know you want and need.  Not always easy for someone who is chronically codependent and used to caring more for others than herself.  You must stop frantically casting a wide net in the hopes that all of your goals will come to fruition, and instead go back to the basics.  Slowing down, thinking things through, not reacting.  The decisions that will come from this different way of life will be different than before, will move you toward what you intend for your life now as a divorced single mother.  It's time to embrace the world you currently reside in, and find whatever love, comfort and joy there is already in your life.  If you also intend to focus on fewer relationships, to take better care of yourself, to communicate with love and respect, to take more time organizing and planning instead of flailing around on the whim of every client and every family member, you will be more successful.  To focus on what good being successful can do for your world is also a good intention, and benefits everyone.  You can decide, day by day, hour by hour, relationship by relationship what you want and need.  

So under the banner of "living intentionally" you must make some decisions that you normally would not, and let go of some of the unintentional self inflicted unhealthy goals and ungoals that are holding you back from an intentional, personal, wonderful life.