Optimist

Dear Optimist,

That saying that everyone kept throwing at you three weeks ago, that seed you refused to let germinate in your anxiety and sadness, is now finally taking root. " Time heals all wounds".  Already the sting of the mean and angry words that were hurled at you is fading, as is the memory of his face and his voice.  Though last night your friends called you "Sally Sunshine" you occasionally let the thoughts of abandonment and insecurity blow through your psyche, but the tears no longer fall from these thunderous cloudy memories.  Slowly as you move forward you see that there is always a rainbow after the storm, and that what waits for you is better in every way.

Your friends and family love you, support you, heal you with their hugs and cards and emails and texts.  Your animals continue to love you unconditionally, especially the new kitten your son urged you to name Grief.  He is the antithesis of grief, he is joy, love, sweetness, light.  He makes you laugh.

You date, and as you date you see what was missing and what was unhealthy.  The IBM Systems Analyst who is a dog lover, well educated, thoughtful, kind.  The Architect with the funky shoes who loves how quirky you are and how beautiful your home is.  The Doctor you are seeing next week who you have only talked with, but find you are drawn to by his sense of humor, confidence and intelligence. The Dentist you met yesterday, centered and calm.  Somewhere there is someone who is a perfect storm of all of these qualities, and that is the person you will wait patiently for.

There is fog and rain outside this morning, but the weather report calls for sunny skies later.   Sally Sunshine will take the dogs to the dog park, paint a little, read a book, breathe in and breath out and know that the new calm is perfect in every way.  Optimistically you will live your life, knowing that the life and relationships you already have and the joy you are open to receive is the rainbow after the ugly storm of a bad relationship.