Quitter

Dear Quitter,

It's true, you were raised by a Marine to never, ever give up but you have decided to quit.  To quit trying to be what someone else wants you to be, to quit trying to take care of the world, to quit equating being alone with being lonely, to quit waiting for your life to start, to quit trying to find Mr. Right.

Not an easy thing, this quitting.  Basically you are giving up on the goals, the singular focus that has dominated your adulthood.  Just like walking into your manager's office to tender your resignation years ago, there is a mixture of excitement, sorrow and acceptance.  

You quit because you aren't happy.  You quit because you try so hard to love and never get that effort back.   You quit because the idiots on Match.com are either depressed, looking for a 30 year old or wanting to sleep with you immediately.  You quit because you make bad decisions, you stay too long in bad relationships, you have no boundaries.  

You raised your children with the mantra "we do what needs to be done, when it needs to be done, no matter what"...and in your subconscious all of the care taking, support, gifts, listening, loving was what needed to be done.  It's time to stop doing, to quit trying, to accept what is and what isn't.  There is peace in the resignation that we do without doing.  Maybe you will find someone who truly loves you, and maybe not.  It's time to just be good to yourself and let it all go.  It's OK to be a quitter, just this one time.